This looks like a problem of cognition at first glance but it's not. On the one side is cognitive dissonance--the emotional recognition of contradiction as repulsive. I'm exposing contradictions and creating discomfort. My deal brings the downside of being alone in the world and your parents having been un-heroes, among other things. On the other side is repetition, the comfort of a parental protector, the satisfaction that we're doing good, the embarassment of annexing a position outside of what is accepted by the own group. This is an emotional struggle. That the USG is the "greatest purveyor of violence in the world today" is as intellectually obvious as a pre-Algebra equation.